Going through some old papers that I wrote from Grad School, I came across a little gem that made me start thinking about the past few months in my new job here at North Lake School. It was an evaluation of my year student teaching. Reading it over, I very much appreciate the optimism and passion I had, but I also slowly realized that my ideas and hopes still have not changed–and I am happy for that. I am not going to lie, I have been spending far too much money on books, the couch in the class is looking a little rugged after only three months, and I by no means have dry-erase boards velcroed to the desks, but you know, I feel like I and the students are all well on our way to becoming a community of readers and writers.
All in all, this short reflection on my hopes as a teacher continues to motivate and inspire me and I am happy I ran across it. As I read it over, I realize how important it is to continuously reflect on your teaching and to look back on the reflections from previous years so as not to lose that new teacher spark. In recording our thoughts, reflections, and practices, we have a record of the growth we have made, as well as the possible setbacks we may have missed.
What I learn most from re-reading the following evaluation of my teaching and hope for my future is that I never want to lose the rose colored glasses it seems every new teacher has but every veteran loses. I hope to always look at this wonderful profession as I did on the day I wrote this:
I am picturing myself in my classroom next year…I have somehow been given all of the money in the world, and my classroom is pure perfection. There are even dry erase boards velcroed to each desk for students to quickly jot down answers to spoken questions before they choose to share. But that’s not all; we also have a library full of pillow pets, and there is even a couch. In the corner is a broom for the students who can’t sit still so they can positively contribute to our community even when they are just “having a bad day”.
The students are comfortable because we have created a community where we respect the learning process and each other. When I think about the support my students need to reach their potential, I think about the support they need from, not only their teachers and other adults in their lives, but also from their peers. Kids can be cruel, but they don’t really want to be. We as teachers need to create a room where only the good is invited, where only confidence is built, and where students feel safe.
In support of my students as readers and writers, I also feel that it is important that each and every voice is heard in the classroom—even the quiet ones, even the one who must be separated from the group because they “just can’t seem to behave.” We are all different and we all have stories to tell. It’s important that strugglers and even the ones that make you want to pull your hair out are not left out—so often kids misbehave because they are not given the attention or patience needed for them to succeed.
Reading and writing allows each kid to share their story, and it is important that they see literacy as a tool, not a chore. That is the wonderful thing about reading and writing, it gives us a way to record and share our stories. In my classroom it is not going to be embarrassing to share a story about something that you have or are dealing with outside of school. Instead, it will be recognized as brave, bold, and daring—something to be respected.
Talking, reading, or writing about controversial issues going on in the world today also will not be avoided. There is literature that raises important questions that relate directly to our life but that are often avoided because of their “controversial” nature. I intend to let the sparks fly—I intend to allow my students to question the world around them…in fact, I will encourage it, even teach it. In the end, I want my students to leave my class after a day, at the end of the week, and at the end of the school year still thinking, still questioning, and above all, planning to make changes in their life for the better.
Now…as for my grade, I think I have received an A. First and foremost, I have worked really hard at being the best teacher I can be by doing classroom assignments to their fullest and taking care that they have been done in a way that relates to my teaching. I have made it to every class, participate regularly, and, above all, love what I am doing.